Let's be real, putting yourself out there in such a public forum is terrifying. I was taught from a very early age the importance of public perception and the effects it can have on your family and friends. Maybe it's because I'm the eldest of 5 children, but the importance of setting a good example for my younger siblings was a sermon I heard often, regardless, I have always censored my actions and motives. I can't help but wonder if somewhere along the way in trying to always do what was considered acceptable, did I lose my authentic self?
Maybe by laying it all out there and bearing my soul to you in such a candid way will encourage you to fight your own demons, and not feel as though you're the only one struggling. This blog will be a personal diary of sorts where you'll be able to see my day-to-day real-life struggles of trying to find the right balance in living a mindful, healthy lifestyle.
A few years back I managed with the help of a dietician lose 60lbs, and it was LIFE CHANGING. But, like many who've experienced weight loss, the pounds have slowly been seeping back in like an insidious black disease. With every new 5lb I've gained my inner-voice justifies the weight gain promising it's only a temporary setback and that I'm okay. But I'm not! I've gained excellent life-skills on how to maintain a healthy weight including what proper portion sizes look like, the importance of prepping food in advance, and ensuring adequate water consumption to name a few. Despite all of these tools in my arsenal, I've still managed to screw up my success. But I'm just not willing to lie down, give up and be bitter about it, because I believe Life is all about learning lessons and this is one life lesson I am determined to master!
So in an effort to live a more authentic life I am going to share with you my weight loss journey. I don't want this to be about the rights and wrongs of living healthy, because I believe we are all so very different and what works for one person will not resonate with another. This is a very personal journey that involves not only physical work, but emotional and mental work too. My raw emotions, my struggles, but also my triumphs will be shared in the hopes your soul will be inspired to take your own leap of faith into a more authentic life. I am determined to come out on the other side of this adventure empowered, wiser, and living a more soulful life ready to embrace the next lesson life has in store for me.
Soon I will be posting photos of how I looked originally, how I looked after the 60lb weight loss, and how I look today. Nothing held back. Until then, I leave you with these inspirational words once gifted to me from my very dear friend Brenda:
"Sometimes you just have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down."
